i'm done

with letting you control my life.

you’ve hurt me, more than you will ever know. i’ve been on a roller coaster with you since day one, and i’m through.

you can’t control my happiness anymore, or my confidence. i won’t apologize for being me. no, i’m not perfect. but here’s the truth: neither are you.

i gave you a chance; a second chance; ten chances. i’m willing to forgive again, because i know half of it is me being oversensitive. i still want to know you better, as a sibling in Christ. but it’s hard to believe so much of what you say. i want to trust you. stop giving me reasons not to.

i wish i could just come out and say this in person. i know you don’t even realize how much this is tearing me up inside.

but i’m becoming myself again, finally. each day for the past couple weeks i’ve found another piece. i’ll be okay - i just hope you will be too.