this is my last

blog entry for honors creative writing AND last week of high school, ever.

What.

I remember being a freshman so well. that awkward year when everything was disproportionate and i had the self-esteem of a bug. when too much energy and a desire to be the best goody-two-shoes collided. when i still had so much to learn, but considered myself an expert nonetheless.

now, i'm not perfect. not even close. but i've learned more in these four years - move and costa rica in all - than i ever could've expected. God is good. i've made amazing friends, been loved, shared love.

still, i'm ready for a change. for college. the next stage of my life.

i wish with all my heart that i was going to europe with all best best friends in a week and a half, but it's not in the cards for me, i guess. but there's studying abroad and skiing and blizzards at college, and dorm shopping and orientation when everyone's gone. i have no doubts that i will live a full life if i live it according to God's will.

so here we go. farewell to the lasts, welcome to the firsts.